Dear viewers and bloggers alike,
This is my first time doing a blog. I am kind of nervous... I never share my thoughts.. So let's see how this goes.
Soooo I am in Arizona and before I was in Utah. This has felt like THE longest vacation of my life, and I would like to say that I am having fun, but as much as I love my family, I am just not having very much fun. I just sit around quietly and check my phone like every 30 seconds, but no texts or anything.. whatever.. I don't expect people to drop what they are doing just so they can entertain me for a little while. Just 2 more days. Just 2 more days.
DISCLAIMER: I am not a sad or depressed person.. I am actually a very happy person. I just have bad days sometimes and it doesn't help when I am a teenage girl who has stupid little feelings. Anyways here it goes...
It's really great when no one will give me a chance. I want the old times back, but I long for new surroundings. Confused for what I feel. I want to cry, I want to scream. It doesn't make a difference though. Those things make me appear childish and weak. So I just sit in silence and hope for these emotions to go away, but they don't and I'm still lonely. I hate going through the motions. Log in, log out. I see his smiling face and wonder why it isn't me who makes him smile, why I am so angry and jealous. Its no use. He just doesn't think of me that way. I'm not the one he thinks of first thing in the morning. I'm not the one he texts till he falls asleep. I'm just not that girl. I'm just the one watching and waiting. Still waiting, waiting, waiting, waiting, but nothing happens and no one comes. I'm still in my reality, I'm still sitting in solitude.
HOWEVER, I cannot wait for the day when I meet my prince charming. THE ONE. The one for me. I know that no matter what boy troubles I have, there is that one guy who loves me, who is meant for ME. That's sooo exciting! Anyways... That's all.. haha.. I am done ranting now. :)
